A beautiful challenge

Have you ever met someone who just by interacting with them, your whole world view changes?

As someone who likes to think of himself as open minded, I am being forced to shift and revisit my whole view on what I thought my life would be.

It is very uncomfortable, knowing that you had reached a place where you were too complacent, no drive, just dreaming but not doing, being shown that you had in fact stagnated.

Questioning my self worth is not something I anticipated or foresaw myself doing, moreover because of another person, but boy oh boy.

It is a bit frightening I must admit, the human mind, I’ll speak about mine here, how it is used to a certain way of doing things. How it thinks it knows how a situation should go, but then that illusion being shattered like here, try this way.

I ask myself, do I shrink and run away, or do I expand into this uncomfortable situation. Do I go charging forward, unsure of what will happen, but doing it anyway.

A few years ago, I would have self sabotaged and run away. But now, even with remnants of that old life lingering in the background, I must rise up to the challenge. No backing away, no convincing myself otherwise, no negative self talk, because I know what I can achieve if I drop the BG. (Those who get this reference will know, for those who do not, check this out warsaw-pickup - yohamis-wisdom).

Relax, breathe in, quiet your mind, see all your fears, welcome them, accept them and then move past them. It all works out for good in the end, because I am extremely lucky.

My timing is always perfect. I know that these unseen friends who Carl Jung talks about, are coming around at the right time.

“No matter how isolated you are and how lonely you feel, if you do your work truly and conscientiously, unknown allies will come and seek you.” - Carl Jung.

There are several ways to interpret this, mine is as goes, if you do the inner work, reflect, meditate, accept yourself, let go of baggage, then you start aligning with your higher self who is in alignment with your actual purpose.

It is interesting how this shows up right at this point in my life, I do not have to know what lies ahead, I just have to give it my all and trust that it will work out. Living in the now is flipping difficult, what with all the things trying to have your attention. But, we must persist, and not give in to the troubles of this world.

This was mostly a ramble, rant, so that I could get the negative energy swirling around inside me out and transmute it into something I actually like.

Makes me wonder, should I take up writing as an active thing, rather than one I do when I feel a need to get things out of my head.

Watch this space. Peace and love.